I can’t give the name for privacy reasons, but an adolescent ward in London.
Post it on your tumblr and then send me a link :)
Update [triggers]
I’m on weekend leave from the unit. I’ve been at the unit for 3 weeks on Tuesday. I’ve made loads of friends there, we’ve had some new people join and a few go, but everyone there is amazing. In all honesty, I haven’t improved mentally since the overdose last month. I still want to die and I’m still self-harming (I’ve managed to hide my blades in my room without anyone knowing) and I am not feeling anything right now. My mood for the last week has been overall blank. No feeling. No emotion. Nothing. I’ve told the docs at the unit about this, as well as the therapist I’ve been seeing for the last few months now, and they all said they will work on this with me, as well as any problems I have with my family and communication with them.
There’s a school attached to the unit I am going to, but we don’t actually do any work there, it’s just messing around with papers and shit but it’s alright. The groups at the unit are okay too, some are more helpful than others but whatever.
I still don’t know how long I’ll be at the unit for. I was predicted to be in here for 3 weeks, but 3 weeks is coming up soon so that’s not going to happen. It could be any amount of time, especially since I haven’t made any improvement so far. I think I will be helped more from talking to the other young people here rather than the actual therapy sessions, but whatever happens, I will recover eventually. I am 99% certain I will relapse when I get discharged, but I am going to try and make the most of being here.
Because I am not online, please do not inbox me asking for help with your depression/SH etc. I would love to help, but I have no time anymore, there is no internet access at the unit and I always have so much to do at home on the weekends. Sorry.
Stay Strong x
You’re better than your destructive thoughts and you are able to overcome them. You are a strong person and you can defeat whatever it is that is making you cut and want to kill yourself. Draw red lines over your skin with paint or a pen to create the illusion that you’ve just cut when you haven’t really, and go to I’m Alive to talk to someone if you are actively suicidal or in a crisis. Stay Strong x
My depression and self-harm has completely ruined my life. I think people who are mentally stable don’t realise their luckiness. Depression and all other kinds of mental health issues are worse than terrible as they can completely break a person down until there’s nothing left of them. I attempted suicide last Tuesday and I’m still alive, and I realise now that suicide, SH, and Depression are serious and life threatening things.
Update [triggers]
Last time I posted on here was on Tuesday 16 April, which is almost 2 weeks ago. On that night I posted I was going to OD. I did. 64 Paracetemol (19200mg). Boom. I was in hospital for a week and now I am in a treatment centre. I don’t know how long I’ll be here for, but I like it at the unit. I’m on leave right now at home for 3 or 4 hours until I go back to the unit. I’ve made a lot of friends there and I will slowly recover. There are no computers/laptops/internet access at the unit so I can only get online when I go on leave back home, which is twice a week at the very most. I won’t be posting much anymore, but I WILL be back eventually. I don’t know when, but soon I will be posting like I used to a few weeks ago again. it’s just that the unit restricts internet access so it is difficult to get online often.
I’m sorry if I scared any of you on Tuesday 16th and I’m sorry that I OD’d. At least I’m in treatment now and I’ve made some new friends.
Stay Strong x
[trigger warning]
Once again, I have seen all your amazing messages you’ve sent me, but my mind has been made up. If I don’t do it now I will regret it more than anything. If I survive in hospital if someone finds me, great. If I die, great. It could go either way. But I love you all and all of your messages mean a LOT to me. I thank you so much for your follows, reblogs, likes etc. though the whole time this blog has been running (December 2011). Unless I live, I will not check my inbox again so any messages there asking for help will not be answered (sorry for the few I have not answered), as well as any Stay Strong messages.
Thank you SO much though. I love you all. You can all stay strong without me, you all have the ability to recover, however I do not.
I love you all
X
[trigger warning]
I did a post like this on Wednesday last week but my plan didn’t go the way I wanted. I’m still alive. Tonight I will try again. I am waiting until midnight though, just incase something happens to convince me not to, but I am pretty sure I will do it. I’m not going to make a whole big thing about it. It’s just what my life has come to. Midnight.
Because of this, please do not inbox me tonight asking for help, support, advice etc. I am leaving my ask open, but I will not be replying to ANY messages.
Stay Strong x
